If You Could Hear My Heart

Chapter 575: Chapter 575: Go away, don’t bother me…
 

His large hand stroked her protruding belly, and a strong emotion surged within him.

This emotion, like ants, gnawed and rampaged over his heart, leaving him unable to find peace for a long time.

“Mumu…” he lowered his head, and his hoarse, deep voice echoed in her ear.

Xu Chaomu’s heart surged with emotion, unable to deny, this man truly was a master of seduction.

Who knows how many women he had practiced with to reach such a masterful level.

“Shen the hooligan… you light your own fire every day, can your body handle it?” Xu Chaomu kindly reminded him.

For a man, being able to look but not touch must be painful, right?

Sure enough, Shen Chi’s movements stopped, and he leaned into her ear, his voice hoarse with resignation, “You little thing…”

However, tonight wasn’t entirely fruitless; after all, he had another chance to look over her body.

The first inspection after five years, although not entirely satisfactory, was fine as long as he deemed it good.

As for certain parts that were too small… no matter, he could personally help them grow.

“You bastard, don’t you feel hot in the bathroom?” Xu Chaomu spoke, her clear, large eyes looking at him.

She lifted her head, and indeed, she saw sweat on someone’s forehead. She wondered whether it was from the heat or from restraint.

This man really was a ninja turtle.

Thinking this, she felt quite smug. He had lit his own fire, and he would have to put it out, even if he cried; it had nothing to do with her.

“What do you think?” Shen Chi lowered his head and gently kissed her earlobe.

“Don’t… let go…” Xu Chaomu dodged, trying to push him away.

“Mumu, you clearly want it too, right?” he murmured hoarsely by her ear.

“No… you… let go… don’t…”

Xu Chaomu wanted him to let go, but the words and voice she uttered made her blush.

When Shen Chi’s hand brushed her protruding belly, all his desire extinguished once more.

Feeling the abrupt cessation of his movements, she finally pulled his hand away.

This hooligan! This beast!

He still knew she was pregnant, thankfully, he hadn’t completely lost his reason!

Xu Chaomu straightened her nightgown, her cheeks still fiercely red.

Just as she thought to leave, Shen Chi suddenly caught her hand, “Don’t move.”

“If you make another move, I’ll leave home.”

“I won’t fuss.”

Shen Chi held her two hands with one of his, and with the other, he pushed aside the slightly damp loose hair by her ear.

There was a light blush on her face—Xu Chaomu, looking like that, was like a bowl of rich and refreshing clear wine, intoxicating him beyond measure.

He watched her; this time, he didn’t act untoward, but rather, caressed her back.

Just now, when changing her clothes, he saw that small, fierce scar on her back—the only blemish on her smooth skin.

At this moment, his warm palm caressed her scar.

Xu Chaomu’s heart shuddered, and her complexion immediately changed; she struggled with all her might, wanting to push him away, “Don’t touch…”

But Shen Chi did not relent, his brows furrowed, and he asked with concern, “Did it… hurt a lot back then?”

As his large hand slid over, her whole body trembled.

Back then, back then…

Did it hurt when the bullet went through her back?

At that instant, she only knew he was safe, and she… was relieved…

There were no regrets for taking that bullet for him.

The most painful moment was probably when they extracted the bullet, when she had thought she would die in the next second.

That pain was unbearable.

But, fate did not grant her wish; she survived. Yet at that time, she never imagined that five years later she would still be with Shen Chi.

She always thought he’d already be married, to the woman he loved, Bai Man. And that they had a child…

She imagined countless times that his child was definitely cute and smart, just like him.

When in Paris, every time she thought of these things, her heart ached as if pierced by needles.

That pain in her heart was a hundred times, a thousand times more intense than the physical pain.

She remembered how she used to masochistically count the days, fantasizing that his child was born, that their family was joyfully together, enjoying domestic bliss.

He would surely dote on his child—if it were a daughter, that would be perfect.

In Paris, she tortured herself like this. Whenever she thought of him, she’d remember Bai Man’s words on the cruise…

Bai Man said, “Xu Chaomu, stop deluding yourself. It was Zhou Ran who killed your mother; Shen Chi is the son of your mother’s murderer! Look at you, how foolish you’ve become, loving Shen Chi for so many years.”

Bai Man said, “Look at yourself, you love him so much, aren’t you just despicable? Even loving the enemy’s son, your mother won’t rest in peace. Do you think she’d hate you to death in the underworld…”

Xu Chaomu’s ears were once again filled with Bai Man’s shrill voice from back then, and that agonizing sensation, as if being drilled with knives, returned.

She dodged Shen Chi’s touch and pushed him away forcefully, “Get away, don’t bother me…”

She escaped from the bathroom in a panic, running out fast, with a knife twisting in her heart…

Mom… Every time she thought of her mother, she felt guilty.

Not only was she incapable of avenging her mother, but also… she was in love with Shen Chi, helplessly and deeply.

Bai Man was right; she was despicable. How could her mother rest in peace…

The knife inside twisted more fiercely, stabbing her heart until it bled every time.

“Mumu!” Shen Chi too was panicked and chased after her from the bathroom.

His touch on her scar must have triggered the memories, must have reopened what seemed like a healed wound.

She must have remembered her mother, otherwise, she would not have had such a strong reaction!

It was his fault. Her mother, Xu Mengxi, was a taboo between them. He thought that after five years, she had let go, but he was wrong.

This chasm between life and death could not be bridged by merely five years…

He shouldn’t have touched that taboo when she hadn’t fully accepted all of him.

Xu Chaomu ran through the rooms, her mind exploding into blankness!

Outside the window, another flash of lightning streaked across, illuminating the entire sky, followed by a rumbling thunder!

It was as if she did not hear the thunder at all; her ears were filled with a buzzing like that of bees.

She felt oppressed all over. The light was oppressive, the air was oppressive, the room was oppressive… Such pressure made her feel suffocated.

She wanted to leave, to run to an open place…

Xu Chaomu clutched her head, running down the stairs. She had forgotten that outside was a violent storm, with lightning and thunder!

“Mumu, Mumu!” Shen Chi shouted after her!